Expertise

I am not an expert on grief. I am not an expert on anything. 
My goal here is to heal through writing and help others along the way.
Due to the length of time(10 years) between my daughter's death and my son's I have some perspective on my own grieving and healing process. I also know there is much hope for sunnier days as time passes. 
It has only been 6 weeks since my son's death. Presently some days are unbearable. Others much better. A lot of it depends on the amount of sleep I'm able to get. 
I take comfort in his music, his old letters and cards to me and his pictures. 
I brought home several of his shirts which I wear so I can feel surrounded by him. He gave the best bear hugs. 
I take comfort that he is reunited with his sister whom he dearly loved and he no longer lives with the guilt he wasn't able to overcome for buying her the skydive ticket.  He is at peace with her. We will find it too.